5 Weeks!
So we have made it to 5 weeks! And of course I am still obsessively taking home pregnancy tests since I wont get anymore beta’s (bloodtests). I feel absolutely normal and if I wasnt reminded by my ticker everyday, I would never know that I am pregnant. I almost feel like this is too good to be true sometimes, like this gift is going to be snatched up at any moment and I am going to wake up. My first ultrasound is on the 11th and it wont be until I see my baby’s little heart beating that I will really believe that it is true. That is partially the reason that I announced my pregnancy so early…because saying “I am pregnant” makes me believe it, if only for a moment. Don’t get me wrong though, I totally feel blessed and I PRAY that everything is going well and Justin and I have a healthy baby growing inside my belly. I am told it is normal to be anxious, especially given everything that we have been through just to get to this point, but I want to be excited and confident! In the next few months, as my belly swells and I see the little thump of the heart as it beats and see my baby grow from one point to the next, it will become real, but until then….I will be anxious. Please keep us and our baby in your thoughts!!!